been reading and reading and reading. ahaha. i finished two books yesterday and went to the library twice. lols. cheryl dear dont envy me, i would help you make beds in an instant if i could.
read a book called the memory of running. loved it. but finished it too fast. He went cycling. and I feel like going on a cycling journey too! such irrational thoughts. one day maybe. i'd like to meet people
Snuggled in bed last night to read astonishing splashes of colour. it was really really good. teared a bit at the end when the lines between her world and mine blurred. haven't done that for a long long time.
Go read todays papers if you have time. the section on dementia. :) i miss
went running with Val and Zhen today. they waited for me as I slowly lumbered along, but i made it alright:) i want to run more! though not under the watch of Mr Sun.
Met my dear brother Shin Hung yesterday. I was shocked when he appeared in a suit and tie and pounced on me. Brothers. We had a rather fun time telling each other stories about the past 2 years over a meal of pork chops and pork ribs. :)
I should plan my hols. sighs. and not let it waste away. should spend this hols building discipline into my walk with God. It's a terrible spiritual battle.
Cool. Just watched the news, and they have this vest that inflates when you fall backwards. It's got a cooler price of 2000 dollars. ahaha. Problem solve anyone? for a cheaper alternative. And what if they fall forwards or to the side. Which is what happens more i think. Fall to the side and fracture.
the pretty night sky after the last day of clinicals :) Lee Mei treated me to a Mr Bean cone:) yays to Lee Mei. She's a nice clinical pal. Even though there were times i made her rather exasperated, haha.. but yea. We went home together for 9 weeks! We also fretted over lunch together for 9 weeks. it's been that long. We went grocery shopping together and tried to organize the chaos in the kitchen.
I feel liberated, even though i probably still need to clear one more document. My mum fretted over my uniform and lunch for the past two months. She also had to bear through the intial grumpy days when i wasn't used to the long hours. i shall do the ironing and cleaning for the next three weeks for her:)
Daddy sent me for the past month too. On and off. Thanks Pops. It's super out of the way, completely opposite direction and still you insist. Doesn't help that i fall asleep on moving vehicles.
Sisters give in to your whims and fancies when they know that you're tired and stressed.
i do -oh-so-miss my residents, they give me face because i'm still a freshie. Always asking me "have you eaten, do you want?" Each face there, they might be just another resident to many, but they are still people, they have identity and history. They were once young like me, people used to look up to them. They fell in love, they had a job, they had autonomy to do what they wanted.
i hope i did my best. it's been a good placement. Sup actually worries if you've learnt enough. :D
Time to plan for the weeks ahead. So that i'm well exercised, well rested/ refreshed, well prepared and well grounded
That's mo mo's new home. mo mo is a hamster, and mo mo is short for monster. ahahaha. it has habits like me. at 3am it's awake. at 6am it's awake too. Sleeps in the day.
i like the figure praying. will i be contorted to that shape one day?
i'm tired. ahhaha. shoot me, especially since i'm not working. went to meet a close friend just now. It's always edifying meeting him cause i get a fresh new perspective on ministry, on my walk with God, on life in general. i tend to curse and swear before meeting him cause it's so hard to meet him and then we tend to have to walk around a fair bit thanks to poor planning. But yea, some things money can't buy.
and then he always comes with a challenge- this time would be to have an accountability group. which i think it's a fantastic idea. Just that it involves being vulnerable and spending time talking. Neither of which i'm good at.
overwhelmed. time to zzz. Happy birthday to Jeanette, Jia Cun, Iris and Mabel. That's a mighty lot of birthdays this week:)
I love you!!! you horrible woman, you've disappeared. Got the pretty flowers in the post today. Really made my day (even though i'm now so zonked out) And YOU didn't write a return address. Right, now my heart is smiling. Nope, attachment not over yet, still got a week to go. Will write you a note when i get my hands on your address:)
This morning was a blast! haha. Not that I had a spiritual high or anything, but really really learnt alot, definately been blessed just by being there. It dawned upon me what Jesus being the 'author and perfecter of our faith' really means (to me at least). It means that he created, and is still writing my faith, and i'm on this journey of being perfected. It was the wrong side of the day 9pm to 5am praying, but it didn't seem like a gazillion years, even though i was really struggling to keep awake nearing the end.
It was amazing, and still amazes me to see people really seriously engageed in prayer. When we pray, God works.
I also finally learnt what Godly Sorrow is- not focusing on me being wretched, but looking at God, and seeing how much i've hurt Him, and wanting to change so that I don't hurt Him again. An inward change.
Joel 2:13 "Even now," declares the Lord, "return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning."
Return: to go back. Not to a time when i felt uber passionate, not to a time where i had a spiritual breakthrough, but a call to reutrn to God.
How we view God determines how we pray, and of course, how we pray reflects how we view God. How often my prayers have been self-centred " Lord, tell me what to teach them, DG is tmr" See the word in italics.
For our struggle is not against the flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world, and against the spiritual realms. Ephesians 6:12
such a deep warning, that i failed to realise, I was in the midst of it.
and oh yes, Jie Jie, i missed you last night. Cause i know that had you been here in Singapore, you'd be praying too!
Happy birthday Erin Lo! Bad sister I am, Barely spending 10 minutes with you on your day. Glad you had fun:)
been reading and reading and reading. ahaha. i finished two books yesterday and went to the library twice. lols. cheryl dear dont envy me, i would help you make beds in an instant if i could.
read a book called the memory of running. loved it. but finished it too fast. He went cycling. and I feel like going on a cycling journey too! such irrational thoughts. one day maybe. i'd like to meet people
Snuggled in bed last night to read astonishing splashes of colour. it was really really good. teared a bit at the end when the lines between her world and mine blurred. haven't done that for a long long time.
Go read todays papers if you have time. the section on dementia. :) i miss
went running with Val and Zhen today. they waited for me as I slowly lumbered along, but i made it alright:) i want to run more! though not under the watch of Mr Sun.
Met my dear brother Shin Hung yesterday. I was shocked when he appeared in a suit and tie and pounced on me. Brothers. We had a rather fun time telling each other stories about the past 2 years over a meal of pork chops and pork ribs. :)
I should plan my hols. sighs. and not let it waste away. should spend this hols building discipline into my walk with God. It's a terrible spiritual battle.
Cool. Just watched the news, and they have this vest that inflates when you fall backwards. It's got a cooler price of 2000 dollars. ahaha. Problem solve anyone? for a cheaper alternative. And what if they fall forwards or to the side. Which is what happens more i think. Fall to the side and fracture.
the pretty night sky after the last day of clinicals :) Lee Mei treated me to a Mr Bean cone:) yays to Lee Mei. She's a nice clinical pal. Even though there were times i made her rather exasperated, haha.. but yea. We went home together for 9 weeks! We also fretted over lunch together for 9 weeks. it's been that long. We went grocery shopping together and tried to organize the chaos in the kitchen.
I feel liberated, even though i probably still need to clear one more document. My mum fretted over my uniform and lunch for the past two months. She also had to bear through the intial grumpy days when i wasn't used to the long hours. i shall do the ironing and cleaning for the next three weeks for her:)
Daddy sent me for the past month too. On and off. Thanks Pops. It's super out of the way, completely opposite direction and still you insist. Doesn't help that i fall asleep on moving vehicles.
Sisters give in to your whims and fancies when they know that you're tired and stressed.
i do -oh-so-miss my residents, they give me face because i'm still a freshie. Always asking me "have you eaten, do you want?" Each face there, they might be just another resident to many, but they are still people, they have identity and history. They were once young like me, people used to look up to them. They fell in love, they had a job, they had autonomy to do what they wanted.
i hope i did my best. it's been a good placement. Sup actually worries if you've learnt enough. :D
Time to plan for the weeks ahead. So that i'm well exercised, well rested/ refreshed, well prepared and well grounded
That's mo mo's new home. mo mo is a hamster, and mo mo is short for monster. ahahaha. it has habits like me. at 3am it's awake. at 6am it's awake too. Sleeps in the day.
i like the figure praying. will i be contorted to that shape one day?
i'm tired. ahhaha. shoot me, especially since i'm not working. went to meet a close friend just now. It's always edifying meeting him cause i get a fresh new perspective on ministry, on my walk with God, on life in general. i tend to curse and swear before meeting him cause it's so hard to meet him and then we tend to have to walk around a fair bit thanks to poor planning. But yea, some things money can't buy.
and then he always comes with a challenge- this time would be to have an accountability group. which i think it's a fantastic idea. Just that it involves being vulnerable and spending time talking. Neither of which i'm good at.
overwhelmed. time to zzz. Happy birthday to Jeanette, Jia Cun, Iris and Mabel. That's a mighty lot of birthdays this week:)
I love you!!! you horrible woman, you've disappeared. Got the pretty flowers in the post today. Really made my day (even though i'm now so zonked out) And YOU didn't write a return address. Right, now my heart is smiling. Nope, attachment not over yet, still got a week to go. Will write you a note when i get my hands on your address:)
This morning was a blast! haha. Not that I had a spiritual high or anything, but really really learnt alot, definately been blessed just by being there. It dawned upon me what Jesus being the 'author and perfecter of our faith' really means (to me at least). It means that he created, and is still writing my faith, and i'm on this journey of being perfected. It was the wrong side of the day 9pm to 5am praying, but it didn't seem like a gazillion years, even though i was really struggling to keep awake nearing the end.
It was amazing, and still amazes me to see people really seriously engageed in prayer. When we pray, God works.
I also finally learnt what Godly Sorrow is- not focusing on me being wretched, but looking at God, and seeing how much i've hurt Him, and wanting to change so that I don't hurt Him again. An inward change.
Joel 2:13 "Even now," declares the Lord, "return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning."
Return: to go back. Not to a time when i felt uber passionate, not to a time where i had a spiritual breakthrough, but a call to reutrn to God.
How we view God determines how we pray, and of course, how we pray reflects how we view God. How often my prayers have been self-centred " Lord, tell me what to teach them, DG is tmr" See the word in italics.
For our struggle is not against the flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world, and against the spiritual realms. Ephesians 6:12
such a deep warning, that i failed to realise, I was in the midst of it.
and oh yes, Jie Jie, i missed you last night. Cause i know that had you been here in Singapore, you'd be praying too!
Happy birthday Erin Lo! Bad sister I am, Barely spending 10 minutes with you on your day. Glad you had fun:)
Although the fig tree shall not blossom
neither shall fruit be in the vines;
the labour of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat;
the flock shall be cut off from the fold,
and there shall be no herd in the stalls:
Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation.
Habakkuk 3:17-18
This lullaby is only a few words
A simple run of chords
Quiet here in this spare room
But you can hear it, hear it
Wherever you may go
I will let you down
But this lullaby plays on
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and we cycle
momo! haha. i gave her a chair.
That's mo mo's new home. mo mo is a hamster, and mo mo is short for monster. ahahaha. it has habits like me. at 3am it's awake. at 6am it's awake too. Sleeps in the day.
i'm tired. ahhaha. shoot me, especially since i'm not working.
