had to hang a big red balloon on my bag on friday. That was embarrasing, even though i didn't say it. I felt self-conscious all the way home cause people were staring. and yet, strangely enough, i was careful not to let the balloon burst. it followed me home precariously in the MRT crowds. My sister insisted that i bring it along with us for cell, all the way to pasir ris. It weathered yet another turbulent ride, on the train to amk and then on a very crowded 88. I was bothered by it's presence. The bus uncle told me to be careful with the balloon. it was getting in the way.
is my faith sometimes like that. yes, i cling on to it, but i do mind what other's think. esp when things like serving gets in the way of other seemingly more important stuff.
I wonder too, why i keep feeling depressed after going to church. overwhelmed and burdened. Joanne's leaving soon :(
I found "The call" by Regina Spektor. Heard it at when they were playing out the credits of Prince Caspian. Probably going to listen to it countless number of times for the next few days.
someone jab me awake. i'm quite tempted to go sleep convincing myself that it'll be an unproductive night. but so will tmr afternoon. tell me why i'm slow again?
You'll come back When it's over No need to say goodbye
Have no idea how to relate to the lyrics, but i like them all the same. Brings about amelancholic-happy feeling.
this week was quite happening. I just woke up from a 2 hour nap, cause i zonked out. feeling guilty. nvm, can stay up tonight to do some stuff. oh my 12.36 already. wells.
feeling quite happy this week. Firstly, cause i'm no longer in pain and can eat as i please. well, almost. tomorrow it'll be stitches out. wonder how it'll be like. is he going to just pull the whole string out?
secondly, cause jie jie came over to cook! i was already anticipating at 4.30 during pract. hehe. it was yummy yummy. looks like all the horse meet did some good. and then the way she flipped the egg was like flipping prata. lols
and there's my pretty jie looking delighted with herself :)
thirdly, excited cause of the naked-i campaign! beginning to regret all the times that i failed to join the crusaders for fellowship cause i was too lazy. even though tiredness played a role, going would be no problem with determination added in. Really had lots of fun 'freeze-ing' today. I'm not the kind to do crazy things (trust me on this:P ), but in someway, it's like dancing for the Lord. Shall paste a part of the email that Qin Ting sent which was really encouraging
How did/will you feel when/if people tell you that we are going to wear "Naked i" T-shirt and freeze for 20 seconds at the most crowded places during lunch time? "Oh, No...No please! How would people think of me, 神经病? " This is how i felt when Mylene told me about the publicity of "naked i".
"How the king of Israel has distinguished himself today, disrobing in the sight of the slave girls of his servants as any vulgar fellow would!" (2 Samuel 6:20)This is how Michal daghter of Saul despised King David when she saw him leaping and dancing before the Lord. This happened when David defeated the Philistines with the help of the lord, and he knew it was God who helped him! When David brought the Ark to Jerusalem, "David, wearing a linen ephod, danced before the Lord with all his might, while he and the entire house of Israel brought up the ark of the Lord with shouts and the sound of trumpets." (verse 14 &15). But...Michal, did not understand it: "And Michal daughter of Saul had no children to the day of her death." (verse 23)
I am not sending a message that if we dont do the publicity for the "Naked i", God will curse us, no, not at all. Rather, I want to remind each one of us that God can do His work without any one of us, but yet, He chose to use us, it is not a shame, it is a privilege. Because He is God of good, He wants to bless each one of us through "Naked i'.
Verse 21-22 says:"David said to Michal, 'It was before the Lord, who chose me rather than your father or anyone from his house when he appointed me ruler over the Lord's people Israel-I will celebrate before the Lord. I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes. But by these slave girls you spoke of, i will be hold in honor."
Guys, let us always remember that even when we freeze in front of people physically, we are also freezing in front of God. Let us remeber that God does not see us like the world did. In the old days, David danced in front of God, today, let us freeze before the Lord.
and so that's how it is. the anxiety in my heart was there when i was frozen. But i'm totally glad I did it anyway :)
Fourthly, happy cause I had dg today with Melissa. Even though it's just her alone, the other's weren't willing to come at 8am, I'm glad for the time spent. I feel refreshed when we share! To think the day before i shed some tears because I felt tired at having to meet all my girls one at a time, instead of meeting them as a group. Of course I would pray for my dg to be able to come together, but if this is how it'll be, then it's fine too. Really thank the senior dg for praying for me and encouraging me too! Selina, Qin Ting and Cheryl sat there and helped me analyse the situation.
I wish i was there? haha it won't even appear in my dreams. Sarah wishes she wouldn't drool. and that she can rest in peace.. lols. happier knowing that jie jie is coming back tmr. feel that i haven't done much during the hols, seems that time has just flown by and i seem to be busy busy. didn't really get to spend much quality time with anyone.
threw away my wisdom teeth, not that i'm missing them. There seems to be psychosomatic symptoms attacking the other side. i'm just highly irritable. :( which is terrible. i can't imagine at the moment having to go through this a second time.
I secretly think that hippos are ugly. Anyway, it's been an eventful week. oh my. I can't believe it's gone. 50% of hols gone. oh, how i wish i had more time to nua at home.
tuesday: went out with HT. with full permission from his gf of course. spent a long time talking and stuffing ourselves silly with food. Bu cheryl is right, swensens burgers are nice. and that night rained heavily. I remember cause ht kept trying to stop me from going out for a jog at night. I wouldn't have, cause there's no one at home to make sure i come back in one piece. Rah has common sense k. Much as I dream of one day single-handedly punching the lights out of some baddie, i know it won't happen.
wednesday: Daniel came over to grandma's place to grab my entire music collection. well, ok, i didn't upload all my cds in, so he probably only took half of what i have. That's my very true selfish nature emerging. He polished off two bowls of Ah Ma's soup -____-""
thursday and friday: morning was spent rushing and watching chemain mop the floor. I half expected sushi to come out from Jie Ru's kitchen. And the speedy gonzales group bought me a water flask!!! haha. i'm amused. Camp started out, wasn't quite sure how to handle all the kids, and it showed. The mosqitoes had a feast while i was preparing my seemingly failed flour activity. A lot of things felt better when suzie was by my side. and i had a very very fun time sleeping like a log next to suzie out in the open with only a ground sheet and sleeping bag. I keep complaining about the three princesses. Actually, they're not that bad. The smallest one is cute and quite brave. The middle one reminds me of ME. spoilt. "we can't go out in the rain because it's dangerous" Father complained of his daughter getting mosquito bites. My eyes laugh. With parents like that, it's hard to wonder why the poor girl turns out into a princess living in an ivory tower. Even though my dad didn't kick up a fuss of bites and falls, i saw the jealous and self-centered me in her. The "me" who wanted to win all the time, and control what other people did? Hopefully, that part of "me" has been subdued, but who know's, it's still hidden somewhere, waiting and lurking. Some of the older girls and jia le were commendable though. They show hidden maturity. Need to write them a note of encouragement?
Saturday: Woke up early for conference, but ended up leaving the house late cause i was preoccupied with the phone. silly phone decides that it doesn't have enough memory for messaging. I see how vigorous reasearch must be and it sends shrudders down my spine. We went to watch Budak Pentai at the esplanade concourse. They had us reeling in laughter. why..oh why, do men have nipples I like the voice of the guy in the middle. And the bass.
Went to meet cheryl and her friend in j8. Me and cheryl spent a long time talking in cartel. so much so that we didn't finish the breadpudding we ordered. and i found out that she's injured much of her major joints. It has to do with carelessness and judo. when i think of going green, mental images of brown cloth bags come into mind. I try to switch off my appliances. The keyword here is try.
sunday: i slept for four hours in the afternoon after some ironing. SOME ironing. there's a stack still waiting. sighs. I seriously don't like pleats. I shall not buy pleats again. it's so hard to iron. Joanne is back! i miss...
and seriously, maybe the newspaper might have a headline, youthleader goes on a rampage because of youth group. rescue me is a apt song.
and yes, Happy Father's Day. I miss my grandpa. I miss my family.
Saturday and there we were at 7am after copious amounts of coffee. I look awake only cause i have a bright laptop case. or at least i think i look more awake than mummy dearest. We spent most of the night talking. talking. talking. Now i know who the twin is. wahaha. and poor jia min had to hug me. She wouldn't take me and cheryl along. hmphs. Even dropping us off at tokyo would be nice. Caught a nice photo of my dear friend sleeping on the way home. and yes, being 21 does mean that you take twice as long to recover from one night of sleeplessness. Even as I loved the time spent together, i think it's too hard on the body clock. haha. no more, for a long time.
Monday. it's hols and man, why dont i feel it. My eyes were closed when we were discussing this morn. haha. i contributed ok. It's just the eye lids. temporary ptosis. Sarah woke up after some music blasted into her ears. :) and there was another fruedian slip of the tongue. "I don't like bones with fish" Thank goodness we ended up laughing at Ness instead. Why? Cause she heard my remark wrongly and tried to make a sacarstic remark..
I met my dear delph at night for subway and daisol.haha. that was funny. she was telling me about how her brother likes to go to daisol. imagine your brother dragging the entire family to daisol. She brought me to the arcade (when was the last time i stepped in????). We went crazy shooting hoops and trying to make it to the next level. That's how addiction kicks in. You keep spending more so that you can make it to the next level. and yes, can't wait for the next time we can shoot hoops again!
Memorable quote of the day: "let's go to the library so that we can kill two stones with one bird." who said it? me. haha. and i didn't even notice till ness started laughing. that was how tired we were. had a whale of a time looking at casio watches and suaning each other while doing deary things like thinking of methodology. haha.
twas liru's birthday on wednesday. happy birthday dear girl:) she ate 5 tubs of chawanmushi.
such an eventful week of meetings and eating. :) don't want the next week to come. it's overly eventful
had to hang a big red balloon on my bag on friday. That was embarrasing, even though i didn't say it. I felt self-conscious all the way home cause people were staring. and yet, strangely enough, i was careful not to let the balloon burst. it followed me home precariously in the MRT crowds. My sister insisted that i bring it along with us for cell, all the way to pasir ris. It weathered yet another turbulent ride, on the train to amk and then on a very crowded 88. I was bothered by it's presence. The bus uncle told me to be careful with the balloon. it was getting in the way.
is my faith sometimes like that. yes, i cling on to it, but i do mind what other's think. esp when things like serving gets in the way of other seemingly more important stuff.
I wonder too, why i keep feeling depressed after going to church. overwhelmed and burdened. Joanne's leaving soon :(
I found "The call" by Regina Spektor. Heard it at when they were playing out the credits of Prince Caspian. Probably going to listen to it countless number of times for the next few days.
someone jab me awake. i'm quite tempted to go sleep convincing myself that it'll be an unproductive night. but so will tmr afternoon. tell me why i'm slow again?
You'll come back When it's over No need to say goodbye
Have no idea how to relate to the lyrics, but i like them all the same. Brings about amelancholic-happy feeling.
this week was quite happening. I just woke up from a 2 hour nap, cause i zonked out. feeling guilty. nvm, can stay up tonight to do some stuff. oh my 12.36 already. wells.
feeling quite happy this week. Firstly, cause i'm no longer in pain and can eat as i please. well, almost. tomorrow it'll be stitches out. wonder how it'll be like. is he going to just pull the whole string out?
secondly, cause jie jie came over to cook! i was already anticipating at 4.30 during pract. hehe. it was yummy yummy. looks like all the horse meet did some good. and then the way she flipped the egg was like flipping prata. lols
and there's my pretty jie looking delighted with herself :)
thirdly, excited cause of the naked-i campaign! beginning to regret all the times that i failed to join the crusaders for fellowship cause i was too lazy. even though tiredness played a role, going would be no problem with determination added in. Really had lots of fun 'freeze-ing' today. I'm not the kind to do crazy things (trust me on this:P ), but in someway, it's like dancing for the Lord. Shall paste a part of the email that Qin Ting sent which was really encouraging
How did/will you feel when/if people tell you that we are going to wear "Naked i" T-shirt and freeze for 20 seconds at the most crowded places during lunch time? "Oh, No...No please! How would people think of me, 神经病? " This is how i felt when Mylene told me about the publicity of "naked i".
"How the king of Israel has distinguished himself today, disrobing in the sight of the slave girls of his servants as any vulgar fellow would!" (2 Samuel 6:20)This is how Michal daghter of Saul despised King David when she saw him leaping and dancing before the Lord. This happened when David defeated the Philistines with the help of the lord, and he knew it was God who helped him! When David brought the Ark to Jerusalem, "David, wearing a linen ephod, danced before the Lord with all his might, while he and the entire house of Israel brought up the ark of the Lord with shouts and the sound of trumpets." (verse 14 &15). But...Michal, did not understand it: "And Michal daughter of Saul had no children to the day of her death." (verse 23)
I am not sending a message that if we dont do the publicity for the "Naked i", God will curse us, no, not at all. Rather, I want to remind each one of us that God can do His work without any one of us, but yet, He chose to use us, it is not a shame, it is a privilege. Because He is God of good, He wants to bless each one of us through "Naked i'.
Verse 21-22 says:"David said to Michal, 'It was before the Lord, who chose me rather than your father or anyone from his house when he appointed me ruler over the Lord's people Israel-I will celebrate before the Lord. I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes. But by these slave girls you spoke of, i will be hold in honor."
Guys, let us always remember that even when we freeze in front of people physically, we are also freezing in front of God. Let us remeber that God does not see us like the world did. In the old days, David danced in front of God, today, let us freeze before the Lord.
and so that's how it is. the anxiety in my heart was there when i was frozen. But i'm totally glad I did it anyway :)
Fourthly, happy cause I had dg today with Melissa. Even though it's just her alone, the other's weren't willing to come at 8am, I'm glad for the time spent. I feel refreshed when we share! To think the day before i shed some tears because I felt tired at having to meet all my girls one at a time, instead of meeting them as a group. Of course I would pray for my dg to be able to come together, but if this is how it'll be, then it's fine too. Really thank the senior dg for praying for me and encouraging me too! Selina, Qin Ting and Cheryl sat there and helped me analyse the situation.
I wish i was there? haha it won't even appear in my dreams. Sarah wishes she wouldn't drool. and that she can rest in peace.. lols. happier knowing that jie jie is coming back tmr. feel that i haven't done much during the hols, seems that time has just flown by and i seem to be busy busy. didn't really get to spend much quality time with anyone.
threw away my wisdom teeth, not that i'm missing them. There seems to be psychosomatic symptoms attacking the other side. i'm just highly irritable. :( which is terrible. i can't imagine at the moment having to go through this a second time.
I secretly think that hippos are ugly. Anyway, it's been an eventful week. oh my. I can't believe it's gone. 50% of hols gone. oh, how i wish i had more time to nua at home.
tuesday: went out with HT. with full permission from his gf of course. spent a long time talking and stuffing ourselves silly with food. Bu cheryl is right, swensens burgers are nice. and that night rained heavily. I remember cause ht kept trying to stop me from going out for a jog at night. I wouldn't have, cause there's no one at home to make sure i come back in one piece. Rah has common sense k. Much as I dream of one day single-handedly punching the lights out of some baddie, i know it won't happen.
wednesday: Daniel came over to grandma's place to grab my entire music collection. well, ok, i didn't upload all my cds in, so he probably only took half of what i have. That's my very true selfish nature emerging. He polished off two bowls of Ah Ma's soup -____-""
thursday and friday: morning was spent rushing and watching chemain mop the floor. I half expected sushi to come out from Jie Ru's kitchen. And the speedy gonzales group bought me a water flask!!! haha. i'm amused. Camp started out, wasn't quite sure how to handle all the kids, and it showed. The mosqitoes had a feast while i was preparing my seemingly failed flour activity. A lot of things felt better when suzie was by my side. and i had a very very fun time sleeping like a log next to suzie out in the open with only a ground sheet and sleeping bag. I keep complaining about the three princesses. Actually, they're not that bad. The smallest one is cute and quite brave. The middle one reminds me of ME. spoilt. "we can't go out in the rain because it's dangerous" Father complained of his daughter getting mosquito bites. My eyes laugh. With parents like that, it's hard to wonder why the poor girl turns out into a princess living in an ivory tower. Even though my dad didn't kick up a fuss of bites and falls, i saw the jealous and self-centered me in her. The "me" who wanted to win all the time, and control what other people did? Hopefully, that part of "me" has been subdued, but who know's, it's still hidden somewhere, waiting and lurking. Some of the older girls and jia le were commendable though. They show hidden maturity. Need to write them a note of encouragement?
Saturday: Woke up early for conference, but ended up leaving the house late cause i was preoccupied with the phone. silly phone decides that it doesn't have enough memory for messaging. I see how vigorous reasearch must be and it sends shrudders down my spine. We went to watch Budak Pentai at the esplanade concourse. They had us reeling in laughter. why..oh why, do men have nipples I like the voice of the guy in the middle. And the bass.
Went to meet cheryl and her friend in j8. Me and cheryl spent a long time talking in cartel. so much so that we didn't finish the breadpudding we ordered. and i found out that she's injured much of her major joints. It has to do with carelessness and judo. when i think of going green, mental images of brown cloth bags come into mind. I try to switch off my appliances. The keyword here is try.
sunday: i slept for four hours in the afternoon after some ironing. SOME ironing. there's a stack still waiting. sighs. I seriously don't like pleats. I shall not buy pleats again. it's so hard to iron. Joanne is back! i miss...
and seriously, maybe the newspaper might have a headline, youthleader goes on a rampage because of youth group. rescue me is a apt song.
and yes, Happy Father's Day. I miss my grandpa. I miss my family.
Saturday and there we were at 7am after copious amounts of coffee. I look awake only cause i have a bright laptop case. or at least i think i look more awake than mummy dearest. We spent most of the night talking. talking. talking. Now i know who the twin is. wahaha. and poor jia min had to hug me. She wouldn't take me and cheryl along. hmphs. Even dropping us off at tokyo would be nice. Caught a nice photo of my dear friend sleeping on the way home. and yes, being 21 does mean that you take twice as long to recover from one night of sleeplessness. Even as I loved the time spent together, i think it's too hard on the body clock. haha. no more, for a long time.
Monday. it's hols and man, why dont i feel it. My eyes were closed when we were discussing this morn. haha. i contributed ok. It's just the eye lids. temporary ptosis. Sarah woke up after some music blasted into her ears. :) and there was another fruedian slip of the tongue. "I don't like bones with fish" Thank goodness we ended up laughing at Ness instead. Why? Cause she heard my remark wrongly and tried to make a sacarstic remark..
I met my dear delph at night for subway and daisol.haha. that was funny. she was telling me about how her brother likes to go to daisol. imagine your brother dragging the entire family to daisol. She brought me to the arcade (when was the last time i stepped in????). We went crazy shooting hoops and trying to make it to the next level. That's how addiction kicks in. You keep spending more so that you can make it to the next level. and yes, can't wait for the next time we can shoot hoops again!
Memorable quote of the day: "let's go to the library so that we can kill two stones with one bird." who said it? me. haha. and i didn't even notice till ness started laughing. that was how tired we were. had a whale of a time looking at casio watches and suaning each other while doing deary things like thinking of methodology. haha.
twas liru's birthday on wednesday. happy birthday dear girl:) she ate 5 tubs of chawanmushi.
such an eventful week of meetings and eating. :) don't want the next week to come. it's overly eventful
Although the fig tree shall not blossom
neither shall fruit be in the vines;
the labour of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat;
the flock shall be cut off from the fold,
and there shall be no herd in the stalls:
Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation.
Habakkuk 3:17-18
This lullaby is only a few words
A simple run of chords
Quiet here in this spare room
But you can hear it, hear it
Wherever you may go
I will let you down
But this lullaby plays on
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overwhelmed
this week was quite happening. I just woke up from a 2 hour nap, cause i zonked out. feeling guilty. nvm, can stay up tonight to do some stuff. oh my 12.36 already. wells.
I wish i was there? haha it won't even appear in my dreams.
I secretly think that hippos are ugly. Anyway, it's been an eventful week. oh my. I can't believe it's gone. 50% of hols gone. oh, how i wish i had more time to nua at home.
Saturday and there we were at 7am after copious amounts of coffee. I look awake only cause i have a bright laptop case. or at least i think i look more awake than mummy dearest. We spent most of the night talking. talking. talking. Now i know who the twin is. wahaha. and poor jia min had to hug me. She wouldn't take me and cheryl along. hmphs. Even dropping us off at tokyo would be nice. Caught a nice photo of my dear friend sleeping on the way home. and yes, being 21 does mean that you take twice as long to recover from one night of sleeplessness. Even as I loved the time spent together, i think it's too hard on the body clock. haha. no more, for a long time.
Monday. it's hols and man, why dont i feel it. My eyes were closed when we were discussing this morn. haha. i contributed ok. It's just the eye lids. temporary ptosis. Sarah woke up after some music blasted into her ears. :) and there was another fruedian slip of the tongue. "I don't like bones with fish" Thank goodness we ended up laughing at Ness instead. Why? Cause she heard my remark wrongly and tried to make a sacarstic remark.. 
